She’s Going to Fall…
Where is she?
I can’t find my little girl.
She was here just a second ago, but now she’s gone. I hear steps and look to my left. I see her blond hair swinging as she walks toward an outside staircase.
I begin running and call out to her.
But she doesn’t hear. She keeps walking.
Up the steps she goes. I know she’ll fall.
I must run faster.
The Invisible Nets
But she reaches the top of the staircase before I do. She does indeed fall, but she is caught. She is safe.
There is a net for such occasions.
I had not known of the net. It was hidden from my view.
I feel immense relief. Such as I’ve never felt before.
And I awake.
It has all been a dream, a nightmare, really. There was more (isn’t there always more in our dreams?), but the gist has stuck with me for over 30 years ago when I first dreamt it:
God has set up multiple safety nets around us, unbeknownst to us.
God is always loving our loved ones, even when we aren’t around. Our children, anything in our care really, aren’t our responsibility alone. They aren’t loved only by us. God loves them even more than we do.
And while yes, he primarily uses us to tend to those in our care, he also uses others. Sometimes we each step up and do our part.
But sometimes we don’t.
In those times, we pray the invisible safety nets will hold.
Uncertain of What, Not Who
As I reflect this month on my One Word of the year, UNCERTAINTY, I am reminded of that dream I had when my firstborn daughter was a baby.
It has brought me great comfort in my life.
But has it not promised any guarantees.
Life still happens. And death. Many types of deaths.
Sometimes someone has cut a hole in the safety net. Or the fragile body rejects being caught. Or we crawl out of the net ourselves.
Thus, uncertainty still frightens me (I believe; help my unbelief). I still long to fully understand each mystery, to find the complete instruction manual, to flood the whole path with light instead of one step at a time.
But I’m discovering my antidote to uncertainty is not more certainty.
It’s simply trust.
Not trust in what will happen next, but trust in who will be there when it does.
I can’t know the what. But I can know the who.
As I flounder through my current season of uncertainty, I’m finding a measure of peace in knowing God throws safety nets out here. For me. For those I love. And for all those he loves, which is everybody.
Even when I can’t see him, I can see we are his safety nets of love for each other.
May we each be found safe there.
Who are your safety nets?
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