I hate when I have a fight with Jeff. It takes a lot to get us to the point of intense argument. But we can get there.
We got there again not long ago. Why? I don’t even remember now.
What I do remember is feeling discouraged that I still get into fights at all.
- Shouldn’t I know better by now?
- Shouldn’t I be so transformed into the image of Christ that I can let go of ego?
- Shouldn’t I have matured enough by this age to bypass heated disagreements and use loving words instead?
I guess not. Sigh.
I want God to change me faster. I could do more, be more, love better if he’d just finish up the job.
Wouldn’t I be a better advertisement for Jesus if I could get it all together?
Then I remember: I am not the point. I am only the pointer.
It’s not about me being a finished product. It’s about the perfect One I’m pointing to. It’s about Jesus. About how good he is, not how good (or bad) I am.
Granted, we do want to show he makes a difference in our lives. That life is better because he’s in it. That we’ve hurt less people and loved a lot more because we have his Spirit in us.
But even then, the evidence isn’t in how perfectly (or not) we love, but in how loving he is to work through us anyway, to love us anyway, right in the midst of our imperfections. That takes some strong power!
Don’t wait until you’re transformed into Ms. Perfect Christian who never argues with her husband or totally controls her junk food intake or answers the phone no matter who is calling before you think you can testify to how great Jesus is.
Sometimes the best witness is the one who has had a terrible day (week? year?) yet still knows they’re loved. And still wants to love others anyway. Not from their own abilities, but because the King of Love himself keeps washing grace over them daily.
It’s not about your perfection; it’s about Christ’s.
And that’s good news no matter who it’s coming from.
Even from someone as imperfect as me.
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