I woke up in a sweat.
I had been dreaming I ran into someone I love while I was out running errands. She looked disheveled, disturbed, unhealthy. I saw she saw me. I wanted to rush up to her and talk. But she looked the other way.
In the dream, I was devastated.
When I woke up, I was still devastated.
But I went back to sleep.
I dreamed again. Again, I ran into my loved one. This time she looked happy. This time she was friendly. This time she was glad to see me.
In the dream, I was happy, too.
But when I woke up, I was devastated. . . because it had only been a dream.
Why Did I Choose Release as My One Word 2022?
Near the end of 2021, I knew I was clinging too tightly. I wouldn’t—couldn’t—accept the reality that a primary relationship had severely shifted.
I talked to my husband Jeff about it. I talked to family and friends about it. I talked to a counselor about it.
And I talked to God about it.
Release was the word, the practice, I felt God guiding me to. I knew it would be my one word for 2022.
Why Is Release Important to Me?
If my holding on too tightly was causing additional suffering on top of the pain I already felt, I needed to learn to loosen my grip. To release my desire for control.
I needed to make room for life as it is, not just how I wanted it to be. I didn’t have to like it, but I had to make space for it.
I had to release the attachment to my expectations so I could receive the necessary skills for this experience, this reality.
Why Is This Word Helping Me This Year?
God is helping me use Release to intentionally evaluate what I need to let go of. And what I need to hold on to.
- Release control to
- Release pride to
- Release past and future to
receive the present
- Release denial to
- Release unhelpful thoughts to
receive healthier thoughts
- Release my rights to
receive my options
And ultimately, I pray I release my death grip on relationships I cling to as “Mine!” so I’ll be open to receive the people available in my current season of life to love and be loved by.
I may not be released from bad dreams at night.
But I can consciously work to receive healthier dreams by day.
God arms me with strength. His perfect way sets me free.
2 Samuel 22:33 (GW)
Did you choose One Word for 2022? Mine is Release. Is your word helping you? Share in the comments.
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